My last musings on love spoke of what I thought it could do for us as a species. I thought that love could ultimately allow us to fly. That it had some kind of biological power that would send us to the skies.
I realize now that I missed something vital that kept me from connecting to the very love I felt I understood so well. While intellectualizing love I neglected to do the one thing that would allow it to take hold. I forgot to succumb and just believe in love. To truly FEEL it rather than think about it. To let it flow through me in everything I do.
I found myself so very very lost over the last chapter of my life. I allowed fear to guide me away from love and away from my true calling. from the path that we are all destined to walk along together, without exeption. I allowed the intellectual in me to overshadow the spirit. I thought too deeply about life and found myself lost in the darkness of self doubt, fear and pain. I was no longer on the path that I knew was out there. I had lost the one thing that mattered most. Faith.
Up until very recently I believed in not believing. I thought we could think our way out of any hole. I was wrong. It took the guidance and passion of someone extremely dear to my own heart to show me the truth. That all you need to make the leap from fear to love was FAITH. As I write this I am shocked that I had stepped so far away from that truth up until literally only a couple of days ago. But like a flash of lightning I came to realize that all I ever had to do was let go. Stop hanging on to life with such a tight grip and release myself to the spirit of it all. To allow love to simply flow through me.
And so it is with this writing that I declare to you all that I am putting the past behind me. Fear will no longer govern my life. I will let go and allow love to guide my way. I've come to understand that nothing else in life matters but love. Because being in a place of love can only become a self fulfilling dream. Just let go. It all seems so simple. And perhaps we all need to find our own way of letting go of our grip on life and simply sit in love.
The fears will never go away, this is the bigggest part of the lesson I am learning. Fear is always a heartbeat away, but, as I wrote years ago, the difference between fear and love is simply a choice. The choice to say no in the face of fear and to release to our own inner light. To simply have faith that love will show the way, no mater how dark it gets.
Above all else I realize the truest path is to accept yourself for exactly who you are, warts and all. To recognize the divine inside your own heart and to allow it to shine. Love yourself and the world will open up. I have been on a very destructive path of fear and self loathing for far too long. I see now it has gotten me nowhere. All fear has done is strip me of my life. I have had enough. I say NO to fear. In fact to truly become one with life I will love even my fears. After all, our fears are part of the beauty of our human-ness. So if I am to love myself I must love ALL of myself, including the fear. It's ok to be afraid, but as with love we need only allow our fear to pass through us or risk having it consume us entirely. Strength comes not from being fearless, but from standing up to our fears and facing them head on. Look your fears in the face and then let them fade away. Allow your love to take charge. Love always knows what to do.
Love will show the way. All we need do is trust and believe.
Just love.
